Yoga teaches me to set clearer boundaries.
Before I began practicing yoga, I had frequent gramal seizures that occurred in public spaces with large groups of people. As a result, I stopped going to see live music or attend events. This was so inhibiting for me because I formed the mental relationship, people = bad.
When I started practicing yoga, I began noticing that I’m a pretty sensitive person who tends to take on the prevailing energy of a room. If someone is in a bad mood around me I don’t just feel it, I become it.
Yoga and meditation helped me to see that it’s not my responsibility to take on another person’s mood and how to set better energetic boundaries. When I notice I’m taking on a sensation that doesn’t belong to me, I make a conscious decision not to take it in. I say to myself, “this is coming from so-and-so, it’s not my issue to fix, process, or take on.”
I’ve experimented setting better energetic boundaries when I’m in big groups. When I feel a wave of energy coming on, I imagine a long line of energy coming from the universe down into the crown of my head, through my body, through my feet and back down into infinite space. Then I imagine a warm orb of light surrounding me and then a blank screen. I’ve been doing this for years and it helps me to feel grounded.
It’s been over ten years since I’ve had a seizure. The exact cause is still unknown, though I feel my recovery is directly related to reduced stress levels I’ve been able to achieve through yoga and meditation, balanced diet, and adequate sleep.
I reached a personal milestone this year when I went to Austin City Limits with my friend Ryan Wright. ACL is a large music festival with upward of 50,000 people. The last time I attended ACL was in 2005. I was so unsure of myself then, nervous about how I would respond to the large group. I had my last seizure in 2002, and ACL 2005 was a huge test. I walked in with two good friends who held my hand because I was so frightened and overwhelmed by the crowd. I managed to get through the day, but it wasn’t fun, it was endured.
This year, ACL 2014, was the first time I was able to open up and just enjoy myself in a crowd that big. I feel like yoga and meditation have strengthened my nervous system so much, I was just able to be there and have a good time like a normal person! It was a deep personal victory for me.
Yoga helps us set more concrete boundaries, in addition to energetic ones. It helps us see what works for us and what doesn’t, the difference between flexibility and deference, wisdom and bull doody, so we can make subtle shifts that shape our daily environment.
Hi! I'm Robin - Teacher, Singer, & Author. I love creativity & sharing what I love!