Yoga teaches me to ask for and accept help. I once had this attitude that I could do it all by myself. Actually that was my preferred method of doing things. That way I felt like I didn't have to depend on anyone else but myself.
But life has a way of teaching us lessons and I came to a point when I had to ask for and receive unasked for help - frequently. Most of my difficulty came when I became financially independent after my divorce. I was stretched so thin, working all the time and still not making ends meet. And then the help came in the most beautiful and unpredictable ways:
The student who gave me a 100 dollar bill wrapped neatly in an envelope after class. The fresh strawberries from a garden delivered to me by a neighbor, unasked for, at my door. The invitation to dinner when I really wasn't sure how I was going to eat that night. The sublet apartment at just the right time. The food co-op that literally fed me all summer. The job at Wake the Dead Coffee House that started just when I got into my new apartment. The local teaching opportunity at Red Dawg Hot Yoga that allowed me to share what I love to do with the local San Marcos community.
And not to mention the emotional support from my friends and family: The long talks with my mother when she said so wisely "you're just in a transition right now". The conversations with my longest, best friend Nikketa Burges, that kept me grounded when I was at my most raw and vulnerable.
It was uncomfortable at first. I beat myself up a lot. I wondered why I'd put myself in the situation where I had to rely on others to get through this challenging time. But now that the dust has settled, I see that accepting help and allowing myself to be seen when I was most vulnerable created support structures that I still rely on today.
Accepting help isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign of strength. To openly admit that there are circumstances beyond my control and ability to fix is a beautiful human quality. And because of experiencing the reliance on others, I feel stronger than ever before because I am a product of everyone's charity and love. I am part of a community and hope I can do the same for someone else when I'm needed.
Hi! I'm Robin - Teacher, Singer, & Author. I love creativity & sharing what I love!